by Anonymous | 4th May 2021 | Clinician Stories, The Covid Diaries
I’m scared. What I’ve seen play out before me over the last few weeks scares me as much, if not more than the events of the few short crazy weeks leading up to the first national lockdown in March 2020. Back then there was a sense of solidarity, of battle...
by Anonymous | 27th Apr 2021 | Grief, Stress and Burnout
My dog died last week. She was my second baby, my shadow, my companion, for 15 years. I was her top dog and she was mine. She spent her days at my feet, or cuddled up nearby while I worked, often discernible in the corner of a zoom meeting. If I lay on the sofa, she...
by Anonymous | 20th Apr 2021 | Humanity, Identity
A glorious May in a Northern city. Being out in the empty streets at 9 o’clock in the evening was strangely soothing; people had gone home from their offices, the shops were closed and the large, black buildings had heaved a sigh and settled down for the night. I...
by Anonymous | 13th Apr 2021 | Stress and Burnout, The Covid Diaries
It was week two of facing one of my greatest obstacles, a task so seamless to others, as simple as blinking or breathing. Not that I found either simple in this moment; I notice my blinking is rapid and my breathing is tense, fast, shallow. This familiar and yet...
by Anonymous | 6th Apr 2021 | Stress and Burnout, The Covid Diaries
It isn’t called a sinking feeling for nothing. It feels like you’re in a lift, plummeting down the outside of a skyscraper, out of control, hurtling towards the inevitable. Your stomach is like a washing machine on fast spin, and the dread, deep in your...
